Tuesday, August 30, 2016

Blissful Naivety/Wasted Experience

I was given an assignment in my creative writing class recently. The parameters of the assignment were to "Write a short (one page) story as a child. Then, write a short story as a seventy-year-old man. Both characters should be on an airplane or train or in a car. These should be two different stories, and you will assume first person in each." Hope you enjoy.

Blissful Naivety
By Dustin Anderson
I didn’t know where we were going only that the part of town we were in was very scary. I wanted to go play right after school, but mom had to make a stop before we got home. I had never been on one of mom’s stops before I only knew that when she got back home I wouldn’t see her for the rest of the day, and that I was in charge of dinner. We pulled up to a house that had wood in the windows, blocking out anyone from accidentally glancing inside. The outside of the house was painted a dark brown and some of the paint was coming off revealing white spots underneath. The yard had a bunch of trash lying around it aluminum cans, tires, tools, a bunch of grown up stuff. All of the other houses in the neighborhood had trash in their yards too, I was surprised their moms hadn’t told them to pick all of this up.
“Wait here,” mom said “I’ll be back in a couple of minutes.”
Mom left the car running and the radio on as I watched her walk up to the scary looking house, in the scary looking neighborhood. She made it to the door and knocked. A tall man in a tank top and saggy jeans answered the door and craned his neck for her to come inside. I wanted to get out and ask about his tattoos, but I followed moms orders. Tattoos were so cool. I bopped my head to the pop song playing on the radio as mom disappeared inside the house. I looked around to see if there were any kids in this neighborhood I could play with if we ever came back, since mom was keeping me from playing with my friends. I saw a little trike in the front yard of the house next to us, it was too little for me but I didn’t mind playing with younger kids.
I continued to look around for toys until my eyes fixed on a man running towards our car from the back of the scary house. He didn’t seem scared of anything, he seemed more exciting like he has playing a game of tag. It was definitely a game of tag since he kept looking over his shoulder back at the house. Even though he looked really happy mom always told me to lock the car if I see anyone trying to get in, so I made sure it was locked. The man looked a lot like the man that told my mom to come inside the house. He didn’t have a shirt on and his pants were really baggy. It looked like he needed new pants anyway there were holes in the knees. He knocked on the window with a big smile on his face, and I lowered it a crack.
“Hey kid, you’re Roxanne’s son, Right?” The mysterious man said through a grin. I nodded in response making sure to adhere to my mom’s other command of never talking to strangers. “That’s great, your mom is a real nice lady, and I close friend of mine.” I nodded again, not knowing what else to do in response.
“What’s your name kid? He asked, but I said nothing in response.
He grinned wider, like a clown “Do you like our cool house?” I shook my head yes in response.
“Hey does your mommy ever talk to anyone important?” I gave him a strange look, and he spoke again, realizing his mistake. “Like does your mom ever talk to any policemen? Has she ever gone to the hospital after coming here?” Unsure of what he meant I was about to ask a question in response, but was quickly cut off by seeing my mom come from the house. She had a brown bag with her and an angry look on her face as she stared at the man who had been talking to me. The man turned around to meet my mother before she came back to the car, and it seemed like they were arguing. I got nervous and turned up the radio to make sure I couldn’t hear my mom’s yelling. The two screamed, their hands were flying around in every direction as they spoke, and it seemed like mom was going to hit him until she walked off in a huff.
I unlocked the car for mom to get in and turned the radio down so she wouldn’t yell at me for having it too loud. She ripped open the door and put her brown bag down between us. She looked at me sternly “I told you never to talk to strangers,” she said in her mean voice.
“I didn’t he asked me questions but I never said anything, then you came back.” I said fearing discipline.
“What did he ask?” she said concerned.
“He asked me name and if I liked coming here and if you had been put in the hospital or talked to any police officers.”
“What did you say?”
“Nothing, you came back.”
The man was still looking at us from the spot mom left him. His arms were crossed and he was still smiling. My mom made a gesture I didn’t recognize at him, and took off from the house fast. As we left for home, I started to notice how much the bag smelled. I was going to ask mom about it but she seemed way to angry and I didn’t want to provoke her. Instead I listened to my music and hoped I was still allowed to go play with my friends when we got back home.



Wasted Experience
By Dustin Anderson
                I sat in the plane contemplating the all-encompassing truth that I have grown far too familiar with. I was looking at a child, being painfully reminded of the 70 years that I seemed to have wasted. What was I going to right now anyway? Was I going to be confronted, yet again, by the friends who had secured a vast amount of success while I wither away in retirement from a fast food joint? The plane rumbled a bit as the gravity defying machine met an incursion of strong winds from a storm. The child’s parents buckled his seatbelt as the light flared to life above us, I followed suit as I continued to stare at him envious of the future he has. Would things have been different if I planned more when I was his age? The friends I was going to see were all businessmen, lawyers, or doctors. They had large houses with full front and back yards. I had an apartment in Florida that I was still struggling to make payments on. They all moved to different parts of the country seeking their fortune and obtaining it. I stayed in the same place the rest of my life because I could never bring myself to take a leap of faith.
                The kid moved around in his seat, the restraining seatbelt was making him uncomfortable. The plane shook more violently then before, and the kid became still.
It wasn’t just their monetary success that got under my withered skin, they had beautiful families. They had grown a successful life surrounded by loved ones. In every way I was their opposite. I had always wanted kids, always wanted that constant stream of love and attention. No woman would see fit to marry a poor Burger King manager who constantly came home smelling of onion rings. Why was I born into this pauper’s life? I was smart in my youth, I was constantly on the Honor Roll. All of my friends thought that I was going to grow up to be some big shot. Why didn’t I ever do anything with that? Maybe that’s why I hated these yearly get-togethers. Beyond siphoning more money from my pockets it became a constant reminder of how inferior I was to them. Damn this kid. Damn this kid for making me feel like this.
                The plane shook violently again and more people began to get nervous. The flight attendants raced, in a hurried walk, back to their seats.
                I had to admit this turbulence was a bit strange for me. I was largely unconcerned with it, having made peace with whatever fate I could suffer, but what about this kid? If we were to go down right now, he would never be able to be a big shot like my friends. He would never be able to move away from his friends and grow completely uninterested with the people he left behind. He would never get to feel the kind of love my friends do every day. He would never have children, grand-children, great grand-children that would carry on his legacy until the end of time. Does the world need another story like that? Does the world need another unassuming kid that eventually grows into an uncaring adult?
                The plane shakes to the point where some passengers are lifted from their seats, and the lights on the plane begin to flicker. The passengers mumble things to each other as I notice something that flew from the overhead compartment. A coloring book. That takes me back. I would always color while my friends would play games. I noticed that the kid in the chair was grabbing for it. This dumb kid was completely unaware to the world around him right now, the most important thing to him was that stupid coloring book. In all fairness this is what I would be most concerned about at his age. The world could wait as long as I had my coloring book. The plane shook even more violently, the emergency lights came on and some people started to scream as our future seemed to be as dark as the clouds that surrounded us. The captain mumbled something inaudible to these half deaf ears of mine as I looked at the kid beginning to cry. Was he crying about the circumstance or because he couldn’t get to his book? In any case, if I was going to die with life unfinished at least I could get this kid his coloring book. I unbuckled my seatbelt and crawled to the coloring book.
“Sir! Please return to your seat!” I heard from ahead as a flight attendant stared me down. I didn’t stop. What could she have done killed me before the fall did? I grabbed the book and place it in the lap of the crying kid. His parents eyed me, confused as to why I thought their son cared so much about his coloring book. The kid’s eyes were closed to what he had in his lap and didn’t he stop crying. I didn’t know how much I helped but at least that kid could die with something he truly cared for. As I returned to my seat day began to break through the windows at the front of the plane. A calm of relief came over the passengers as some punk began to clap for the recent weather improvement. I rolled my eyes and looked at the kid. His parents calmed him down enough so that he would open his eyes, and when he opened them he saw the kindness I left on his lap. He hugged the book and began looking around for crayons. His parents looked as confused as mine would have been in the same situation. The kid may 

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Act Your Orientation

Wrote this as an assignment for my Creative Writing class. The assignment was to write a one page non-fictional story, with one fictional element. This story doesn't exactly hold me in the greatest light. I hope you enjoy. 

Act your orientation

By Dustin P Anderson

It was a hot, Florida-like day on the morning of the day I would become a man in society’s eyes. I was by the pool at my current girlfriend’s house and I looked at her with the same curiosity that I always had, wondering silently to myself if there would ever be a moment that I would truly be attracted to her. I could see other boys looking at her in the hall, I could definitely discern that she had attractive features, but for some reason my mind could not escape this trapped feeling of never wanting anything more than a close friend that I was obligated to see every day. I could see she felt the opposite way about me. She could hardly keep her jubilation hidden every time we kissed in a hall way, or around her friends. She acted the same way when we were alone like we were currently, but it was more of a show when we were in public. Like I was a prize her friends should recognize. It was like I listened to her thoughts during these moments and kept hearing the same mantra recited back to me: “look, I got Dustin, the guy that doesn’t seem interested in anyone.”
My lack of interest in the opposite sex had gathered some negative attention from other boys in the school. I was constantly asked “what are you some kind of fag bro? You need to go ask some of these hotties out.” I always said that it was my extreme lack of confidence that led to my sexual solitude, in reality I couldn’t stand lying to someone that seemed to truly care for me in a way I could never care for them.  I didn’t know if I was “some kind of fag” at the time, I could never admit it to myself. I always thought more of the boys in my classes then the girls, and I was often aroused by those thoughts but I could never bring myself to act on them. My father always let me know that having the kind of thoughts that raced in my head would lead my soul to an eternal pit of torment. The kids in my school would constantly harass the boys who would come out of the closet. Some would be beaten physically, while others would be ridiculed mercilessly until they eventually stopped coming to school all together. I was a true coward in the face of social adversity, instead of realizing my feelings, I buried them.
That cowardice led me to this moment, the moment that would allow me to be seen as straight to all of my comrades. The moment that would finally allow me to live a life of non-confrontation. The day I lose my virginity. While I sat there hoping for some sort of attraction to appear, looking at this girl in a bikini, my brain was at war to save me from a path moral questionability. “You’re too young. You just got done with middle school, give it at least until your second year of high school.”  The angel on my shoulder said. “You know at least ten other guys that have done this already. You’re fine.” The demon on the opposite shoulder responded. “She has been baking in this sun for quite some time. She will probably be too burnt to want to do anything.” The angel hoped for me. “This is her plan. She wants to do this regardless of a little sunburn. She intentionally invited you over to spend the night with no parents. If you look in her drawer I bet you’ll find a condom.” The Devil blocked. The two went back and forth in my mind for some time until she arose from her baking, to smile at me. We went through the rest of our day like normal, relaxing with some television, sharing kisses here and there until the night came.
She had invested in some candles for our first sleep over and my shoulder angel was ringing off warning bells as she lit them. We completely undressed each other and my shoulder Devil’s premonition turned out to be mostly accurate as she unveiled a condom from her purse. I asked her multiple times if she was sure this is what she wanted, I assured her multiple times we could wait, in some last ditch effort to save my soul from this wretched engagement. Nothing worked and we eventually found ourselves embraced in a post coital cuddle. I made sure to be very attentive to her needs, figuring thtat at least one of us should derive some pleasure from this; even with this thought in my head, I was beyond ashamed of myself. I committed the ultimate misogynic sin by using a girl for my own ends instead of truly being in love with her. Although she seemed happy by this outcome I know that if she could read my mind she would feel disgusted in me. My pit was only dug deeper as we continued this activity until our eventual break up, my pit was only made wider as she wouldn’t be the only girl I would do this to. The path of redemption for my soul wouldn’t begin for some time after I was done with high school. I still pray to this day that it is not beyond saving for my crimes against those women’s feeling and my own conscience.



-The one fictional thing about this story is that we never had any candles.